Making the CHANGE-Weightloss Diary

Ugh!!!! I’m faaaattttttttt again!!!!!!!! This has been sooo challenging. Ok, let me give you an amended life story so you can understand what I’m dealing with…I grew up overweight and was picked on for it throughout my childhood. After my dad died from cancer when I was 26, I decided to make a CHANGE with my diet and my mom and I started going to the gym RELIGIOUSLY. We went so often the people at the desk knew our membership numbers. Eventually, the weight came off and I was down from a size 20 to a size 12 or 10. I was able to keep the weight off for years. After these years of enjoying my new body, I began feeling extremely tired. I literally couldn’t keep my eyes open most days. Then, one day I get out of bed and woke up on the floor. I didn’t know what happened. I remembered getting out of bed, walking to my bedroom door, reaching for the doorknob, feeling weird and then waking up on the floor. I was mystified! What in the heck happened?? This continues to happen off and on, along with other symptoms (I’ll do a separate post) for several years & 25 plus doctors later and 50lbs later, I was diagnosed with POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome), Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue & Reactive Hypoglycemia 😩 [fun times] Anywho, after being thrilled to FINALLY have a name for these mysterious issues, I was also pissed because I had to start my weightloss all over again. Well, like a boss, I did it! I dropped 50lbs and a lot of my symptoms went away!!! I was able to maintain this weightloss for several years until I went through one of the most stressful 4 years of my life!!! I thought I was going to end my life (I wanted to end my life, actually) After coming out of this succession of stressful events, ALL of those symptoms came back AND THEN SOME! I’m now dealing with all of the crap I dealt with before PLUS peri menopause ☹️ Needless to say, I have wanted to just give up and succumb to this CHANGE and not make any CHANGE so I can CHANGE and lose this weight AGAIN! BUT, I’m no punk! I’m not going down without a fight (in my Oprah from the Color Purple “all my life I had to fight” face). So, here I am, the Change Management BOSS vowing to show the World Wide Web the power of Change when it comes to health. Changing my mindset and not thinking about this journey as “I don’t want to do this again” (because that’s not helping me lose this weight anyway) but thinking about this journey as me helping my body as it goes through this change (peri menopause) and making the changes I need to help with this process. So, I will take you guys on this journey of change with me and will post weekly weigh-ins for accountability and share what I did that week (food, workouts). So make sure you subscribe, stay tuned and join me on this journey. Let me know if you’re on a similar journey in the comments.

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